Lala, go Lala!

Recently, I have been doing a lot of thinking about my life and where I should be and want to be. There is so much I want to accomplish and my life has been full of unfinished projects and loads of goals. There are many things that can happen in a young woman's life that can set her back. To name a few, men, poor eating habits, parental mental issues, and lack of motivation can be enough to keep you from where you need to be. I have recently reached out to a good friend for some advise and she went above and beyond helping me. She has always been inspirational and someone that I really look up to. She recently shared her fitness and career blog with me and it pushed me to the point of wanting to start fresh and new. I decided that blogging my progress would be the best way to stay on top of things. Time goes by far to fast and I have wasted enough time.

My dating life for the past two years has been absolutely dreadful. Over two years ago I ended a serious relationship and long term relationship. I was dating someone that was unmotivated and didn't really have a drive for life. I ended that two year relationship to work on myself and who I wanted to be. That was two years ago and since then I have had a bunch of dead end flings. For the most part I have felt unwanted by men unless it involves sex. I have never gone out to look for these 'relationships' they sort of come to me. After two years of getting screwed over, I basically do not want to be in a serious relationship but if something amazing comes up, I won't be opposed to it. I want to go out and date around and be young and have fun. Being tied down at this point in my life might only complicate things, but if the right thing comes along it will take lots of consideration. For now I have to put my emotions on the back burner and take care of myself.

I want to say I have been vegan for almost a year now and it is surely something I do not regret. I feel like what I have decided to do with my diet is morally right and it feels amazing. One of the down falls about having a vegan lifestyle is falling into the cycle of having packaged pre-made food that is full of chemicals and fat. I definitely do not spend enough time cooking my meals and preparing healthier dishes. This is something that is going to have to change because health is key to happiness no matter how you look at it.

Along with a well balance vegan diet. I am going to dedicate more time into moving around and being physical. I will take yoga three time a week and make sure to work out five out of the seven days a week. Even if it is only for about ten minutes a day, it will definitely pay off in the end. Movement also equals happiness.

My family has always been a big factor in a lot of things I do in life. My mother has been a strong influence on a lot of things I believe and why I am the way that I am. Both negative and good things that have been a result of my mother definitely NEEDED to happen. Growing up on and off I disliked my mother and considered her to be a verbally abusive. My mother has a way with words that will make you feel useless. A few years back I found out she was suffering from depression and everything that she said to me in a negative context was her way of trying to help. Being mentally ill it was her way of tough love but I was to young to realize such a thing and wasn't fully aware of the situation. My relationship with my mom is very healthy now and in the long run I want to make her proud. I know by doing what I want in life and accomplishing my goals, it will make her more than proud. I love my mother and my family dearly so this means a lot to me.

One important thing I would like to get from this blog is focus. Like many other people, I procrastinate. Being that life is so short, there is no room for procrastination. I am hoping to track personal goals and be able to watch myself grow and become even more fabulous than I already am. Over all I feel like this blog will be a major tool in bettering my life. I can only hope that people will read my blog and it motivates others as a blog did for me. You only have one life and you have to live it.